So my five month wait for "the wait" had become nine plus months! Almost a whole year! I went through so so many emotions from anger to sadness to guilt and the whole emotion spectrum! I even wanted to just forget the whole mission thing and just get married sometimes... which would have been stupid, but I was acting out and being ridiculous. My mom said that I wouldn't be able to see Blake as much as I want because "what if we mess up in this long amount of time?" and all this stuff. I was furious. I can see Blake whenever I wanna see Blake! So I called my friend Lauren up and she immediately dropped everything and took me for a drive and we talked everything out. She has her boyfriend out on a mission, so she sort of understands the situation. She told me if I needed to, her house had a spare bedroom I could move into if I wanted. So I did. I did it more so that it would be fun to do and I did have so much fun! I love that family so much. I stayed there for about three months.
So fast forward all these months of fun and being with Blake and growing so much closer to him and knowing more and more that I would love to be with him for eternity, December finally came. The month for him to start on some papers! And it just so happens that not so long ago he got a brand new bishop, so that bishop wasn't so on top of things with Blake's situation as his last one was, plus he was new and just getting used to the "bishop" role. So December went by and then in January, Blake started his mission papers all over again. He got done with them on January 19th or somewhere around there. They were all submitted and we were just waiting for the call! Exciting! We fasted and prayed our little hearts out that Blake would be content with where he goes (because he so badly wanted the Philippines Naga Mission. He was so set on it, and he would always talk about going there and it would break my little heart to hear him hope so bad for it, because odds are, getting called to the same mission is really slim.). And fasting and praying so badly that we wouldn't have a long wait again. We are both done with this waiting thing. We just want him gone on his mission!
So mission calls usually come on Wednesdays. The first Wednesday rolled along by with no mission call... then the second came and went with no mission call. I was quite literally going insane wondering where my sweetheart would be called to for two years of our lives! Then the third Wednesday came, the one we were SURE he would get his call on, and yet no call again. My heart was dying. I couldn't take not knowing anymore. After everything we'd been through why did we have to wait a month for his call to come? Just sitting here waiting for it?
Then on Friday, Blake's bishop texted Blake saying that his call had been assigned! So this time for sure it would come on Wednesday! My heart had hope again! I could wait till Wednesday couldn't I? Then yesterday, a SATURDAY, Blake called me and told me his call came today. WHAT IN THE WORLD? I was screaming and jumping up and down and running all around my house and asking if he was joking and thinking this would be an awful joke if it was a joke. I was going so crazy! It was here! The moment we've been waiting for!
After we hung up I needed to shower and get all dolled up and go over there to be with him! I turned on the shower and then it hit me. This was real. Blake was going to be leaving. For two whole years. I melted onto the floor and sobbed and sobbed. As I was sobbing I thanked my dear Heavenly Father for Blake and that his call had finally come. I prayed that Blake would be content with where he would be going and when he would be going. I then prayed the same for me. For me to be content with this whole thing.
I then got myself together at my house, shaking while doing my hair and makeup. The whole thing was so scary. I would finally know. I hadn't been expecting this. And also, why in the world would it come on a Saturday? They only assigned his call the day before! What if he would leave in a week? I was a wreck. I finally got myself together and drove to his house as fast as I could, with a prayer in my heart that everything would be okay.
The Sonderegger house was abuzz! Everyone walking around and writing guesses to where he would be going. Memories of the last time this happened flooded to my mind. I had gotten to know Blake so much more by now. I know that I love him. This time is more scary because I know him more than the last time. Maybe we needed this year together so that I would know that I should wait for him, to know that I WANT to wait for him. Maybe everything that has happened to us, truly happened for a reason.
Here he is! The anticipation is killing us at this point!
We were waiting for my mom and dad to come over, because they wanted to be there while he opened his call. They got there and my mom and dad go and hold the call and make their guesses. Then the time came where we were just like OPEN IT NOW!
He had to use the biggest knife in the house to open it. BOYS!
He paused before reading it out loud. He knew before he read it where he was going! He got a huge smile on his face and started reading:
Dear Elder Sonderegger,
This letter is to confirm that you have been reinstated as a full-time missionary. You have been assigned to the Philippines Naga Mission as a Tagalog-speaking missionary. You should report to the Provo MTC on March 13 2012.
We appreciate your willingness to accept this assignment, and are confident that you will be able to successfully fulfill this new calling.
Sincerely,
Thomas S. Monson.
Then the excitement kicks in! HE GETS TO GO WHERE HE HAS HAD HIS HEART SET ON FOR A YEAR! And he leaves in one month! ONE MONTH???!!!??? Surprisingly I did not cry. I just smiled a lot and watched everyone react. I felt content. My Heavenly Father helped me feel perfectly content that this is all according to HIS plan. Not Blake's, not mine, but His. I couldn't be more happy for my sweetheart.
His old mission call from a year ago, to his new one.
I love Blake and I'm so proud of him.
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