Hello again. As the end of the day draws near, I think back to myself and say, "What the crap is wrong with me!" I literally did nothing today. I watched some netflix, I went back and forth on Pinterest and Facebook all day, I watched TV. It makes me wonder how I am going to survive in the mission field in two months. I have two months to get rid of this awful laziness streak! As I think about this more and more, the more pathetic I seem to myself.
Yes, I have great friends! We do stuff all of the time! I go to church, I read my scriptures, I work a lot! But when I find myself alone with a lot of free time, I am just so lazy. Why can't I entertain myself as I did when I was a kid? I would write stories and poems, I would read, I would sew, and now I just sit here on my bed on my computer doing, basically nothing. It makes me sick.
As the night grew later and later I became even more pathetic and started talking to my cat. Just about life in general and how I need to shape up and get ready for my mission, and about how much I miss my boyfriend, and about the show I was watching. And then it gets even more embarrassing. My cat left me, and I literally was talking to myself. It was awful.
So, realizing how lonely and pathetic I really am, I have decided to set some goals, right here, right now.
Goal #1
I will not open my laptop until I have read at least 30 minutes of scriptures each day. It is better to do it before than after because guess what? I am such a loser that it sucks me in for hours then I convince myself I only have time to read a little.
Goal #2
I will do some sort of exercise each day except Sunday. I have to do this!!! I haven't for so long! I will go for bike rides, or brisk walks (haha, I really am not in good enough shape to run just yet folks), or do some yoga, or something to help my body not get fatso.
Goal #3
I will finish sewing my mission skirts by the end of May. I will work on them a little bit every day! (P.S. by sew, I mean hem and alter some skirts I've bought and the D.I., don't worry, I'm not that cool to sew all my mission skirts by scratch.)
Goal #4
I will keep my room decently clean. I mean, it doesn't have to be spotless, but would it kill me to pick up clothes once in awhile? Seriously.
Goal #5
I will write in my journal every night. I have really not written much since Blake has been gone. I feel like I should be recording this journey of us going through our missions. I will be better at writing!
Okay, I will stop at 5 goals. I don't want to overwhelm myself ya know? I will try a little harder, to be a little better.
On a side note... Blake is in the Philippines now! He left the MTC yesterday morning! I slept over at his family's house because he is allowed to call them at the airport and I didn't wanna miss it! It was so wonderful hearing his voice after six weeks! He is so happy and excited and he is doing so great! I am so proud of him!
